so just a little query. but when an end of an era occurs, there seems to be a lot of reminiscing and flashbacks of the past. especially when a youth moves towards adulthood. everyone starts to look back and say how great the times were and how great it was to be a free spirit of a child. as a person who considers themselves not that far removed from my youth i can't seem to see what the big deal is. i think the best way to describe this is a quote i heard that goes something like adolescence burns bright to all but the teenagers. yes i have enjoyed my life but my years of teenager ism has never really been a spiritual roller coaster of laughter and frolicking.
annddd... SOOOORRRrrry (yea that was sarcastic sorry) for not posting much! jeez u guys are whiny!! so here i end up posting this crazy little peice!!!
cloudy pumpkins
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Monday, August 23, 2010
Life: Part 8
Boredom? oh you mean school? So today i am suppose to talk about my ISSUES! My many issues like a teenage girl. But really i don't have issues. Sure i can get upset, angry, annoyed, happy, bitchy, friendly, sarcastic etc. But really none of what i have experience in the last year has really been an issue. To me an issue is something that will haunt my thoughts for at least a week, plaguing me with incessant-ness. But the truth of the matter is i don't think i've ever had 'true' anger. 'True' sadness. Because that just doesn't happen in my life. Really any problem i have faced or am facing is really insignificant and easy to get over. I am not naive enough to think that my silly little problems with one person are the be all and end all. It seems ridiculous for me when i sit here and watch as little things tear people up.
What am i saying? "SHUT THE FUCK UP, SUCK IT UP!" There are not many problems you face in school that are life changing. But hey a little intelligence does not hurt does it? I mean use you fucking brain once in a while and think for yourself. "Hey will i regret this?"
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Regret. I've always like the idea of "Live a life of no regret." After much consolidation i have come to the conclusion that this phrase has two insinuations. They vary only slightly but have very different life mottos. Well one: live by doing everything, never looking back and thinking about ur actions and doing what ever you wanted.
two: Never do anything that will cause you regret.
And what i decided was that the interpretations comes down to the person. One is outgoing and will do just about anything, Two is a socially aware person. So what have i decided? Find your balance. Cause thats how i deal with most of my life. I find the balance and sit there because it's never good to eat too much of anything.
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What am i saying? "SHUT THE FUCK UP, SUCK IT UP!" There are not many problems you face in school that are life changing. But hey a little intelligence does not hurt does it? I mean use you fucking brain once in a while and think for yourself. "Hey will i regret this?"
[topic change]
Regret. I've always like the idea of "Live a life of no regret." After much consolidation i have come to the conclusion that this phrase has two insinuations. They vary only slightly but have very different life mottos. Well one: live by doing everything, never looking back and thinking about ur actions and doing what ever you wanted.
two: Never do anything that will cause you regret.
And what i decided was that the interpretations comes down to the person. One is outgoing and will do just about anything, Two is a socially aware person. So what have i decided? Find your balance. Cause thats how i deal with most of my life. I find the balance and sit there because it's never good to eat too much of anything.
<3
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Boredum
HOW can I be so bored? Nothing i seems to do sates my desire for something interesting. It is incredibly infuriating but there seems to be nothing i can do about it. I get about, i work but even that just passes by like... memories. SO instead i spend a few hours nosing my way into the dramatic life of a friend. And oh it is so interesting! But that may just be my hormonal girlteenageism speaking. Relationships and such... but you no it's interesting cause that foreign idea of coupling is soo... interesting/appealing. but then another part of me says wtf is up with everyone and their bloody drama!! why do u have to make everything so fuking complicated! Sometimes u have to do the wrong thing for the right reasons! BUT of course... the 'but's and excuses.... and thats why it is irrational.
SO back to the boredUm issue! BLARgH!. any way can't write anything else.
SO back to the boredUm issue! BLARgH!. any way can't write anything else.
Monday, June 14, 2010
15.6.10 12pm
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Its Tusday as of 30 seconds ago. btw (30 seconds to mars, best band eva). i find my self actually wishing for school, due to my boredom (accumulated ova the past few days) and my competitiveness... can't help it i luv to win, but u probably knew that :). yes exams come back soon, oh how interesting. fail or pass i don't really care, as long as i beat someone, which i always do at my school...*cough*. maybe ill fail my first testing, shockingly enough ive managed to stumble my way thru school without failing anything, quite an accomplishment i believe, it maybe because my fail subject is english and u can pass english as long as you write at least a couple of paragraphs of slightly coherent english. as you can see i dont write coherently.
hmm in hindsight maybe i shouldnt have written such a personal reflection on my blog as it's first post. should i now write an introduction. like hi my name is. im this old, i like puppies and unicorns. does it matter? all you need to no is im some kid writing some blog cause.
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Its Tusday as of 30 seconds ago. btw (30 seconds to mars, best band eva). i find my self actually wishing for school, due to my boredom (accumulated ova the past few days) and my competitiveness... can't help it i luv to win, but u probably knew that :). yes exams come back soon, oh how interesting. fail or pass i don't really care, as long as i beat someone, which i always do at my school...*cough*. maybe ill fail my first testing, shockingly enough ive managed to stumble my way thru school without failing anything, quite an accomplishment i believe, it maybe because my fail subject is english and u can pass english as long as you write at least a couple of paragraphs of slightly coherent english. as you can see i dont write coherently.
hmm in hindsight maybe i shouldnt have written such a personal reflection on my blog as it's first post. should i now write an introduction. like hi my name is. im this old, i like puppies and unicorns. does it matter? all you need to no is im some kid writing some blog cause.
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Saturday, June 12, 2010
For Jesse/anna...
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yea i just had to put those (^) in
maybe it isn't fair that i just get to read ur blog and and delve deeper into the gooey depths that is anna's mind. so after much consideration i have decided to write some stuff. now wat do i write. Maybe i should write more grammatically.... dammit i wrote my i in not caps... soo much effort to use finger properly. (it's 2am) ok time to write seriouslyl like jesse! *insert long pause*
oh well :D
Response to: i posted this cause i thought the dog is cute
Why am I an atheist? After I was bought up as a Christian, then straying from that I became something that would probably be labeled as an agnostic and now only recently i have become a self labeled atheist. I suppose when i was 'agnostic' i went through life normally, no qualms, just solving my own problems never even thinking about religion (except when i was forced to services...grr... get back to that later.) The thing about religion that i can't stand is the perspective. The world is so much more interesting when there isn't an answer to everything (eg. god says so, god made it, thank god). because of who i am i love to find out why. hence my science obsession. i don't think i could stand it if i asked 'why is the sky blue?' and told 'because god...'
yes we can look at nature and say that that is evidence of god, but its also evidence of not god. it's just a matter of perspective in that case. As god is the answer to everything for religion, it puts the science aspect a step behind because unfortunately science has not yet got an answer to everything. (trying not to be to aggressive) Nature is a mystical phenomena... i suppose i don't find it hard to believe that one of the billions of rocks over the universe we were lucky enough to have cells that mutated, expanded, and evolved into a workable ecosystem over a very long time. i suppose if we weren't lucky enough i wouldn't be here to say 'how unlucky'.
who is to say there hasn't been a multitude of attempts on this planet and others to achieve the ecosystem we have. with time a few handful of chemicals could do anything, just look at the food that is left in the back of a locker for a while...
ok i've run of topic to wat i wanted to say. its 3am... getting tired
hope u enjoyed my ramblings of the mind... unfortunately i don't write coherently. my points tend to mesh together and i start to run off to different arguments. but enjoy one of the few emily's ramblings
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yea i just had to put those (^) in
maybe it isn't fair that i just get to read ur blog and and delve deeper into the gooey depths that is anna's mind. so after much consideration i have decided to write some stuff. now wat do i write. Maybe i should write more grammatically.... dammit i wrote my i in not caps... soo much effort to use finger properly. (it's 2am) ok time to write seriouslyl like jesse! *insert long pause*
oh well :D
Response to: i posted this cause i thought the dog is cute
Why am I an atheist? After I was bought up as a Christian, then straying from that I became something that would probably be labeled as an agnostic and now only recently i have become a self labeled atheist. I suppose when i was 'agnostic' i went through life normally, no qualms, just solving my own problems never even thinking about religion (except when i was forced to services...grr... get back to that later.) The thing about religion that i can't stand is the perspective. The world is so much more interesting when there isn't an answer to everything (eg. god says so, god made it, thank god). because of who i am i love to find out why. hence my science obsession. i don't think i could stand it if i asked 'why is the sky blue?' and told 'because god...'
yes we can look at nature and say that that is evidence of god, but its also evidence of not god. it's just a matter of perspective in that case. As god is the answer to everything for religion, it puts the science aspect a step behind because unfortunately science has not yet got an answer to everything. (trying not to be to aggressive) Nature is a mystical phenomena... i suppose i don't find it hard to believe that one of the billions of rocks over the universe we were lucky enough to have cells that mutated, expanded, and evolved into a workable ecosystem over a very long time. i suppose if we weren't lucky enough i wouldn't be here to say 'how unlucky'.
who is to say there hasn't been a multitude of attempts on this planet and others to achieve the ecosystem we have. with time a few handful of chemicals could do anything, just look at the food that is left in the back of a locker for a while...
ok i've run of topic to wat i wanted to say. its 3am... getting tired
hope u enjoyed my ramblings of the mind... unfortunately i don't write coherently. my points tend to mesh together and i start to run off to different arguments. but enjoy one of the few emily's ramblings
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